Year in review

A year ago, my family was, and I struggle with the word to use here, ousted from a increasingly difficult situation. Until something equally as powerful happens around this time of year, I'm always going to associate Thanksgiving with being fired from a job I was very passionate about.
I wish I could write about how much stronger we are because of it...that we're better people now than a year ago. That event really messed us up. It messed with our confidence, our ability to trust Christ and people, and how we think about our purpose in life. Don't get me wrong. I love Jesus. I love who He is and who HE is making me. It's just hard to notice the garden when there's so much manure trying to help it grow. Yeah....that makes sense to me.

Why I'm thankful-

I grew up in a ministry home. I had ministry aunts and uncles. I had ministry grandparents. So when all this went down, every single person in my family knew exactly what we were going through. They didn't blame me (with one exception). They didn't automatically assume that my actions had led to this life-shattering event. Because we're all in ministry, that thanksgiving I was able to share the story at the table. Between this time last year and Christmas, I heard stories. My dad was wrongfully fired after discovering the pastor was stealing money from the church. My grandfather was told to find another job while on staff at a church in Florida. My uncle, my uncle, my dad, my dad's friend, my grandfather...they all had the church really mess them up.

Why I'll still do ministry-

Jesus told Peter that He was going to build His church on the rock of who He is and promises that the gates of hell won't triumph against it. Despite the regret, hurt, and shame I feel from time to time over what happened up there, I still know that life found in a relationship with Christ is the absolute best thing. I use the pronoun "thing" because it encompasses so much. Replace Christ with any 'thing' and it will leave you disappointed, disillusioned, and unsatisfied...or dissatisfied. (3 dises)
Because of this faith I have in Christ, I will fulfill the purpose He has for me. No matter what people in the church do, the church will continue to be God's hands and feet in this world.

I hate what happened to us a year ago. I hate how it went down. I wish I could stop thinking about it...shut it all off. Until then, I will love Jesus and lead people to that love He has for them. Yeah...that's a good thing.

I'll end this with a joke.
Knock knock,
Who's there?
Nobody
Nobody who?











that's all.

by the way...the new Killers album? awesome.